Saturday, December 31, 2005
what's happening? everything seems wrong. it's just so wrong. nothing seems correct. i'm scared. scared something bad will happen. i dont know why the sudden feeling. i hate this feeling. everything just feels weird.
i'm depressed. i'm scared. i'm screwed
scared i did something wrong. or maybe i did something not up to expectation. maybe i did something many wouldnt like.
between us? i trusted. and told you. but then again. maybe you dont understand what it really means.
all the time i've been acting like i'm really happy. am i really happy? maybe i'm just pretending i am for some things. but i know. i am really happy for that one particular thing. only that.
where are my friends when i need them? have they all gotten new friends and forgotten all about me? okay maybe not forgot all about me.
forget it. forget everything. i'll just be really quiet. like that i wont offend anybody. or do things people dont like.
whatever.
everything's so screwed.